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finale.

2009-10-15T13:49:00.003+08:00

to end all misery and sadness i've drowned this blog with,i decided to go on a permanent hiatus(here).

so visit me at my tumblr
http://edleenamani.tumblr.com

thanks for reading :)
xx

Eid Post

2009-09-26T14:36:00.003+08:00

this is the eve of eid or what you call in malay malam raya.there's quite a lot of photos i took that night:
1. cz Kak Wan came,we thought there was a little tahlil ringkas for Mak Da
2. Mak Dodet's busy preparing raya foods for tomorow e.g rendang tok

all those ketupat lodeh rendang and raya usuals.

Mirul bersalaman with Engah.this year's a little different of course.everybody's changing.

Sharifah Damia & Syed Sadid al-Yahya.
my cousins from Dubai/ mama's kids.

Tok Yah & Tok Uban's grandchildren.
we had our yearly eid routine that morning.i was hired (for free) to photograph everyone.
i did quite okay,not bad,but still nothing compared to a pro.we took pictures then headed off to our close neighbour at 10 Jln Sehat; Cik Yah Onn's house.she served us with Nasi Briyani Pak Ambak.Ive never heard of him but theyre simply good! Mummy told me that Pak Ambak catered her wedding dulu.
after Cik Yah,the Raya Routine continued- we went to Pak Abeb's/Papa's dad house in Jln Yusof Taha.met with his family,kak alya's new baby Joanna Filza.she's the cutest thing on the planet!

amirul & i at cik bahri's place.we went to his house that night.i was bored to death.

this is my niece Khalilah Ain.i sat wayyy behind in Pak Da's new vehicle;Toyota Rush with my two nieces.theyre just like me,a huuuuggeee camwhorer,lol.

then around 2/3 days after the first day of eid,we went to visit daddy's friend at Kulai.we stopped by tesco for brunch and bought some buah tangan to his house.its my first treat at Vivo,ive never dine there before.

this is at auntie Ogy's house in Bukit Damansara,her place is a miniature heaven.

im really out of time to blog so i didnt really get to tell you the whole week of eid holiday story.
will be back soon,hopefully.
xx

the miraculous kedai Yuna

2009-09-19T05:46:00.002+08:00

look what i scored here :D
this makes me happy.
have a great eidul fitri,drive safely.
xx

Al-Fatihah

2009-09-18T08:55:00.003+08:00

Norazmah binti Ahmad Mokhtar

she's the one in pink; am in the middle and the white tee is me mummy.

my baby brother danny and arwah mak da.

me and my lovely late auntie.

you will always be remembered,always.
xx

visit to Yusof Taha

2009-08-28T18:39:00.002+08:00

im sooo lazy to type here.just enjoy the photos of :
the lovely Sara who loves to take pictures & her newly born baby brother Muhammad Afzan slash Mr. X

xx

put your best shoes on

2009-08-27T18:04:00.002+08:00

i felt like dying.
am so terribly sick.
the fever strikes again.
ugh.
i want to visit singapore.
but how could i in this condition.
i couldnt even get up just now.
im still feeling a little dizzy now.

xx

sorry,

2009-08-24T11:32:00.002+08:00

i just wanted to apologize to these certain people because of certain things i did that might have upset them.

1.Adlan
im sorry for being such a bitch towards you.you dont,NEVER deserve it.its just that sometimes im bored with our relationship.seems like its leading nowhere plus i really realise that we're drifting and the gap between us keeps filling in and im not so sure about how my feelings are towards you.im really sorry if the downfall of this is my entire fault.you know we can never force ourselves to love.and if my feelings had changed entirely,im really really sorry for breaking your heart and i really want you to let me go,by heart and by actions too.
and thanks fr giving it a second try (:

2.My Dear Best-Friends
to Diyana,Mira,Tiya,Maleyha
sorry for calling it off.since i had a feeling that its really a bad time and probably most of you cant make it so yeah,i called it off.and im v much sorry to for not being able to go out for buka puasa bcz my dad didnt agree with me.im terribly sorry :( really wish i could make this up to you guys.and if theres a next time to hang out with you guys, insyaAllah i'll never miss it.so have a great ramadhan and make a full use of this month k? LY guys

3. DD; Hidayah Rusnani
as if youre going to read this but just in case you do.
we got along okay until i realised your true colours,not that i hate you,just dislike your attitude and the way you treated others.you have to know that nobody's perfect not even myself,not you,not ustz Ruzaini,yeah he makes mistakes too.
you have to wake up to the reality of life.probably true that you are stronger than me because of what you have to deal with your families,okay i dont have the rights in talking about them but what your attitude told me that you probably came from a sort-of broken family.yeah not that poverty-stricken one,youre far more richer than me.not many have the guts to face you not even Kak G,she had 'back-ups'.but the truth is,if you really really change,than i would be soooo v happy because i wouldnt be afraid to talk to you and etc.because right now youre such a pain in my ass.i asked a question nicely and you had to raise your voice and answer them in total negative manners.seriously i was hurt by you.maybe you didnt mean it but anyway i was hurt.so..i guess thats all i wanted to say.im absolutely sorry if my actions/words hurt you but we're fair cz you hurt me and my friends too.

4.Hanah
i wanted to say sorry too cz somehow i felt like im not being a good friend.i didnt really text you when i got to Perak.being in asrama is sure is busy.
and remember the other day when i first went out with you,im so sorry for being tak malu and letting you pay fr the tickets and TGIF.ive never been treated so well like that before so i felt a little guilty for letting you pay.
and i really regretted that we're not that close anymore like how we used to be.yeah you changed,i think i changed too but theres still the same part of Eddy in me that will always stay the same.so im really sorry for all my wrongs and things i did in the past that upset you.hope our friendship will last forever (:

home

2009-08-23T17:23:00.004+08:00

im back (:

miss this spot

plus mummy started baking.i'll miss the scent whenever i come home and even before i enter the front door,i could smell her biscuits already.

xx

kenduri munakib & arwah photos

2009-08-15T16:15:00.002+08:00

oh and FYI am leaving for Perak tomorrow
xx

JB,1830,aug14

2009-08-14T18:26:00.002+08:00

stoned

2009-08-14T16:46:00.002+08:00

wow.its dark outside,macam nak hujan.okay so am currently in Johor.for a kenduri,yeah during this time of the year people get busy helding kenduri arwah and all.we're in the islamic month of Syaa'ban and reaching towards the front part of Ramadhan.
its a little different this year.my first Ramadhan all by myself at asrama.
okay lets move on,i hate talking about asrama.

i really feel like going outside and join the others play beneath since the weather's fine; my kind of weather but i wasnt in the mood.i'll just have to pass it although its v rugi.i dont know if there would be a next time to play.

yesterday was sort of adventurous.we went to Puduraya with a cab and KL was soooo city-ish and ive never had that kind of WOW-ness in a long time.

wayy before that,i went to ss15 and asked mummy to just pass-by Yuna's I AM JET FUEL SHOP.i had no intention visiting it but then mummy kept yanking at me and Danny was v progressive on paying a visit so i jumped out of the car.but..i just cant.i didnt go up.i was TOO nervous and scared (yeah like wtf) because there's gonna be Yuna probably and i dont want to panic over her and act like im some kind of lunatic-fanatic person.so i gain nothing,sort of regret it that i didnt come up to see how her kedai looks like on the inside.my brother told me that the person working there are v friendly.really hoping i could put on some courage badge and march myself to see whats in store.

xx

Maleyha

2009-08-12T16:52:00.003+08:00

i was at parade last night,went into Blook and bumped into this chick and her Ibu.

she told me that all of them misses me,i told her i simply cant quit.

OMG they ARE making it hard for me.
xx

2009-08-10T19:19:00.003+08:00

i went out last friday with...

she's soo baik that she treated me GI Joe and TGIF.
i have to agree with her dining at TGIF on a FRIDAY is fun :D
she had her IGCSE results today.im glad she's staying.

thats her Nikon D80 and it is super huge,i'll call it daddy and mine (d40) baby.LOL

im supposed to go back to Lenggong today,i did..well me & my parents did drive all the way to Perak and i just found out that the Maktab is closed cz of H1N1.im partially sad that no of my MJSC friends told me.but thats okay i guess,at least if they'd (my parents) come to Lgg they can pay fr the laundry and the food monthly charges.and i get to kemas kemas my stuffs that i left fr more than 7 days.im so horrified to find that my room is super duper dusty and my stuff were moved/relocated from their genuine place.probably the cleaner or smth but seriously its scares me,a little intimidating cz i dont like it if others touch/moved my things.

so i guess im okay with the extra one week off.i get to do whatever i want at home but still i have to revise,i felt so left out compared to my old friends in SJ.theyre finishing form 4's syllabus.

xx

p/s: actually its my first time out with her.we've only met online.

WHAT!!?

2009-08-08T23:12:00.002+08:00

yes what the??!
i just found out that the singer Yuna opened a shop nearby (so close to homie sweetie homie)

http://iamjetfuelshop.blogspot.com

hancur la my plan to not spend anymore (saving up fr Dublin trip)
xx

aaarrggghh

2009-08-07T17:00:00.000+08:00

WHATS WRONG WITH TWITTER!!?

the 'money-spending' therapy

2009-08-04T19:04:00.002+08:00

from MNG @ rm59(budget gile aku ni).haha,buying stuff when youre down really helped.

went to pyramid last night with mummy mama sadid damia ata adam.i got shoes and clothes already except for a bag.so i went seacrhing at F21 theirs are a little out of my taste and budget too.luck was on my side i popped by mng and found this honey.
so many places i wanted to go in just few days,am going back to JB this weekend before heading back to Perak..which im still not so sure if i really want to,but i have to,like i said im forced to.

im getting more fearful each day.hoping that i wouldnt wake up to a new day cz im a coward; i dont wanna face the fact.
xx

what's up there?

2009-08-04T18:57:00.004+08:00

cheep (syifaa) will be so mad at me for posting this up.okay first of all she's my MJSC buddy.we've been quite close,im so comfortable with her,i could just cry to her whenever i feel like.

the day my parents came,that morning i went for a hike with thash.took lots of pictures,Lgg reminds me of the woods in twilight.

take a look at my 'favourite' school.*scoffs*

most of the pictures arent taken by me.thash did it.she's quite a good photographer.i mean for a first timer,she did tremendously well especially with jumping shots.

i dont know what to tell them when i get back.
xx

emo

2009-08-04T13:42:00.002+08:00

i have never been this emotional.thats what the last post is about.
i have sooo many to say here but i didnt really have the time now.
even if am home but that doesnt i can do whatever i want.
i agree so much- LIFE SUCKS LIKE HELL.
much worse than hell.
xx

look into my eyes

2009-08-04T13:25:00.002+08:00

i've never felt this horrified about being alive,not this fearful.
i don't want to go back (to Lenggong) there,i want to come home,i want to move back.
i can't withstand the pressure and the lethargic feeling all the time i have there.
i just can't stand it any longer.
im so sick..sick of it.sick of being a hypocrite,sick of pretending to like it.
im tired of crying,but i know that i just won't stop..not until i find my way out of this trouble.
but there's no way out,i HAVE to deal with it.im FORCED to.i can't let my dad down.i can't even LOOK at his face when i told him i give up.

i don't exactly know how am i going to put this down in words,its beyond any than you could ever imagine,i don't even know how it feels like really.
im just..in so much despair,so depressed.ive never felt so tired and crazy and lost like this before.ive never been this scared of the world.

i just wish that everything could just dissapear or i would be someone else.i wouldnt be me.but wishes dont just come true.this is the reality of life.i'll have to face it.

sweetest

2009-07-19T01:28:00.004+08:00

so if you are reading this,its means im home.at home.
just came back yesterday,friday at 7pm.
v tiring the journey was.and today was my belated birthday party together with sadid's.my closest friends came,theyre so sweet.
i'll post pictures okay.i'll try.
im so busy,v v busy- didnt have time to go online during preparatory class.semester II is about being busy.im one of the EMC (s) - an english motivational comittee and we are supposed to conduct a sleepover during activity week cause we're given a slot from Miss Amy.v excited about it as im the one who came up with the theme:
ONCE UPON A DREAM
so far life at boarding school is just fine..besides my phone got stolen and im still in the mid of a nervous breakdown.anyway my dad bought me a new one as a birthday present,i wanted one for my birthday actually.its the cheap LG KS360.i want it because its the cheapest QWERTY phone ever made,money IS an object.gile budget aku ni! HAHA

the evening gathering was superbly sweet,made me go aaawwww all the way.aqeel,mira,tiya,diy,suhail,omar and mal made my day.not only my day,made it to last a lifetime of memory.i may not be crying on the outside but in the inside no one knows kan? been catching things up a little with them.i really like having them around.my next plans with them would be a 'buka puasa' together.cause i only get to come home once a month and my next balik bermalam schedule is on the 22nd i think.the first week of Ramadhan.the whole week of holiday.
i really hate to go back but i just have too.its 1.41am already and i really should be sleeping but i dont think i want to,not after im done with this post cz it'll probably my last post for the next 4 weeks.i dont have much time to do this.

oh no,i really feel like crying now.
xx

quickie

2009-06-12T14:25:00.002+08:00

yayy i got myself an account at TWITTER.
this should be quick,am leaving for SJ in fifteen minutes.
its quite cloudy & dark outside,maybe they dont want me to leave.
i dont really want to leave either,but i have to.

when i get home,so many things are due.no time for procrastination.
the day after tomorrow is the day,im this close to second semester.
yet am not prepared for it.
wish me luck.

xx

one more thing

2009-06-11T22:35:00.001+08:00

im missing my kick-butt friends so much.
you know who you are
xx

2009-06-11T21:55:00.005+08:00

i want to go home (subang jaya) so badly.

yes,am still in JB.went to singapore yesterday and am officially bankrupt.
so broke.deff-o.

i blame you Orchard Road.

none of these cost more than SGD 2.

i bought one silk top and a dress for SGD 10 at this australian originated clothing store called COTTON ON.ive never heard of it.i think theres one in Malaysia cause i it from the tag.the store is awesome,the latest scene is in it.

i broke my wayfarers and replaced it with a cheap SGD 5.haha.

only 2 days left till im back at Lenggong.im having the exact same feeling when im first there.the day felt windy.the sun wasnt bright and just THAT feeling succumbs me with a little sadness and melancholic fear.i hate to fear,even if its the heart of love.fear is a sickness.

so far,my holidays are pretty yet contentful.i didnt study at all.brought additional maths along with me but none was calculated nor simplified.nothing was solved.i ate a lot and i weigh 39ks,which is a little higher than my average.being in this state of malaysia makes me fat,cause the food are better-tasting and hard to resist.yes they are tempting.thats why i didnt eat much back in SJ and lagi la tak makan kat Lenggong.

talking of lenggong,i forgot steal my mum's point & shoot and upload a picture of lenggong.yes you might be wondering what its like there.well..its like cameron highlands with hills and mist.the air is cooling just like the highlands and its sort of in a hutan la but not in the middle of it.it took us around 3 hour drive from KL.and the place wasnt that deeply nestled,its just right around the highway's corner.i think i could like it there,just that the scenery isnt like what im ued to in SJ,where you see tons of buildings,no; its something different out there.

the people..well theyre a lot different cause not all of them come from SJ,only one does - her name is Diana Shahira and she knows loadsa kiddos from SJ.others theyre just..normal i guess.but normalcy isnt me so its kinda hard tingling mingling with them.hopefully i wouldnt start a fire and get myself in trouble.you know how things works in a boarding school.its more than life.

im just there for the sake of myself,the sake of studying and the sake of god,for my parents too,theyre counting on me,i wouldnt want to dissapoint them.
one day,i will wake up in my bedroom again and look back at this point and say

"..that was quick,time flies super fast.i wish i could go back for a while.."

its okay Eddy,just one year and youre done with it.

xx

part two

2009-06-06T17:55:00.002+08:00

i swear,my butt's sweating and the chair's wet.
ive spent hours sitting in front of this computer dealing with my accounts online.
yeah like blogging,im so lazy to blog right now cz i think im il-equipped,this pc isnt like the one at home.

so i'll save the rest till am home in KL.going off to singapore this Tuesday.just got my passport done yesterday.auntie Ed told me mum that theyre having a Great Sale.yeah The Great Singapore Sale.

this isnt a part two,sorry for lying,lol.

xx

traversing

2009-06-06T15:47:00.005+08:00

this is just a random post.a quick look at my first week of summer vacation.
vacation la sangat.

i got home and the next day went to school.met few old pals,diyana wasnt there.i was so pissed at her,didnt even reply her text messages but it didnt stay for long.i got over it and she was forgiven.

surprisingly,i still kept one of those regular government school uniform.the school im attending right now is MRSM (Maktab Rendah Sains MARA) or MJSC (Mara Junior Science College)- my uniform now is completely different,with tudungs and all those alim stuffs.its a v different environment there,so different from where i was from.the students are..its hard to explain,youve got to see it for yourself.anyways i think i can still survive boarding school.nothing's gonna change me or my world.

i went out with them to pyramid.swagged and scored few stuff.and also went out a lot with my mum,we shopped at the Body Shop,theyre having a huuuggee sale,a sale you would never want to miss.

then to Ikano.

my mum insisted on dropping by +wondermilk.they have a new look.theyve got sooo many cool stuff inside,from vintage clothes to a make-your-own-royal-vanilla-cupcake-mix.
yes im sooo...speechless,in a good way.

enough said about malls and money-spending and friends-seeing.
i miss my d40 so much,i'll probably seek permission to bring it over there for photography activities on the weekend.

wait there's more.brb,

green,oh no.

2009-06-06T15:26:00.001+08:00

thank you but no.
green is not an eye-candy type of colour.

home sweet homie

2009-06-02T18:26:00.002+08:00

yes im home people!
kudos to me-hee!
OKAY
im home a day earlier than others
so on Friday i came to school
met old pals
did some shopping and catching up a little bit at Pyramid

it was funny founding out that he fell for her
funny in a certain way,im not being offensive or something

things dont change,not as far as i notice
its good to be home
xx

p/s:i'll update soon,with PHOTOS.currently in johor.

counting days

2009-05-25T15:30:00.003+08:00

despite the fact that people here are so nosy
i just dont care about them peeking into what im typing right now
yes as if i care
go ahead and report me
im not doing anything wrong or writing about crappy do's.

just now was Physics and it sucked,big time.
not that hard but still i dont think i'll get an A for it.
you know the MJSC's exams differs much from Kementerian schools.
it might seems hard like it sounds like but i dont think my friends (back in SJ)
will have the same problem of answering the papers here like i am.
theyre SMART.i love my friends in SJ.

so far life's been..i wouldnt say great,its just normalcy.i dont think
normalcy suits me.maybe thats why ive been crying buckets of tears.
thank god that my dad has finally faxed the letter; kebenaran untuk pick me up a day earlier.since friday i dont have papers anymore.
my letter just got approved and im free to go home this thursday,YAYY!

probably the first thing i want to when i got home is kiss my bedroom wall and my deary bed.yes it is stupid but who cares! i freaking love in an ASRAMA for heaven's sake.

im not sure about going out with friends this break bcs it seems like most of them macam cant make it je.
am not gonna force them to go out with me.
im probably worthless to them by now,since am no longer there.

and another thing for sure,i'll update like GAZILLION TONS OF POSTS
looking forward to it

xx

final exam

2009-05-20T16:04:00.002+08:00

..is going on this week until next week
and then on Thursday am coming home
*CHEERS*
yes people im coming back,going home finally
but sadly for only 2 weeks :(
well at least ots better than nothing.

okay so im going to tell you about a girl i met here during my first-few weeks
her name is SHAMIRA
(she's just right next to me right now)
she's from selangor,bangi.
i like her,as in i really really like.
its feels like i met another person with at least have the same thing in common.

but sadly,she told me she's leaving :(
just today right before Agama.
she's leaving this saturday.which was supposedly be our lepak-lepak night at her room
but now since she's leaving ive got no one else to like lepak-lepak
i think she's the closest here i could get to
not even my roomies are closer to me than her

Shamira please dont leave :(
everything's goiing on so fine and now..yr leaving.
and i'll started to be homesick back again,no more laughing like mad
looking at guys' pants ('pants')

anyways,exams are okay.
tak banyak chapter keluar
mostly ive done that in SJ so ive no problem
tomorrow's additional maths.

im counting days till summer break.
cant wait.
xx

MJSC

2009-05-18T13:12:00.002+08:00

hahaha
im glad to be back
well not gonna stay for long but anyways
for the sake of updating
so how long has it been?
a week i think.
im fine here.
things are DIFFERENT,will get used to it later.
im soooooo homesick yeah homesick.
cried almost everyday
i have friends,made new ones,theyre fine

i miss home so bad
my parents took me outing yesterday and
OMG i have so much to say and so little time
this week is my exam week,my final exam for this semester
oh and next week too
i'll be coming home on next friday probably
i'll try to go home by thursday if bolehla

and i'll try to contact you ASAP
maybe around next week
so that i can set up a date with budak budak sj
yes people I BOLEH KELUAR
okay till now

love,
edleen

2009-05-10T12:37:00.002+08:00

okay.this is gonna be a quick one.

ive just finished with my packing.theres sooooooooooooo many things to bring with i felt like im moving,actually yeah man im moving.haha.
my mum helped out,she did most of the packing job.its mothers day today,me + danny + adam bought her a handbag from United Colours of Benetton,the one that she wanted.

i dont really know what else to say..im finally shifted off somewhere.just like what my dad wanted.

so,i guess this is goodbye for now :)
i'll try to update,but not soon.
thanks for dropping by.

xx

sort of good news.

2009-05-07T16:50:00.002+08:00

my dad received a phone call from MARA.
i got an offer to attend Maktab Rendah Sains MARA at Lenggong,Perak.
i guess im going.

if im too lazy to post more,this will be my last post,in a v long while.
pray for me would you? for my well-being there.i hope to be fine myself too.
im gonna miss everything i have here.everything.

xx

inspire me.

2009-04-24T15:25:00.003+08:00

things that inspired me.

have you heard her new album?

i would so get it if im having a party.

it's my call.

2009-04-24T14:49:00.002+08:00

oh friday.what a lovely day you are.
i simply love fridays.seems so relaxing(even if in fact that ive sooo many things to do but who cares,it feels relaxing).
i skipped Physics today; had no idea what's going on.helped SLAD with their banner.
this monday's Perasmian and im appointed to be the Jurugambar Khas.might switch places with Aqeel,dont feel like taking pictures.so malu.especially with _____ _______. i like being the person behind the camera but not in school.uncomfy.

i like being busy,i just realised it.im taking up sooo many things and there's so many works up due.today i decided to join Amirah for NIE.it seems interesting and obviously i need something to keep myself busy + happy.yes,being busy somehow resplendently makes me feel much happy.well you know what they say,you only live once.

mummy made Laksa Johor yesterday and invited Auntie Shaliza,Cikgu Sue and Auntie Fa-e' over.everyone's mingling around v well.mummy told me that auntie shelly is having a hard time.cant picture my buddies yaya & her sister gish living oh-so-free without their v strict mum.cikgu sue got a little bengang with me for telling my friends that i went tuition with her.she didnt want any more students at her tuition.auntie fa-e's daughters were lovelies.theyre friendly and so informative? wait was that the word? okay anyway i asked them about all this studies etc what do you do after spm? how do you get into fine institutions and stuffs.it might sound boring to you but i find i v knowledgeable.i need to plan ahead.

mummy's taking me out later.she heard auntie shelly said something about a metrojaya warehouse sale.hehe,here i go again.burning humongous hole in my pocket.

goodbye $$$$.
xx

guess who?

2009-04-24T14:32:00.003+08:00

macam porn la sangat
xx

old news

2009-04-23T21:38:00.003+08:00

lepak time at tiya's is like days ago.
but seriously ive got not enough of time.
like today je i have companies for lunch.
luckily there's enough time for homeworks.almost.

i nak lepak lagi la kat rumah you cik tiya.

xx

hypertonic

2009-04-22T23:40:00.003+08:00

am so sleepy + tired.
those eyebags are baggier than ever.
its only 11.41 pm and am nagging about not going to sleep.
just completed modern maths and sivik folio (my part).
left with 8 questions from logarithms of additional maths.
cant hold up anymore.
quitting and getting some sleep.
will probably wake up at 5 tomorrow and put up photos at tiya's house yesterday.

have a good night sleep love
xx

patience.

2009-04-22T18:20:00.002+08:00

just got back home from my v first tuition lesson after PMR.
it was Additional Maths with Pn Sue.
her class was fun (the borak borak part).
someone told me that the offender behind Shiz will be announced this Monday.
cant wait.

later,am working late tonight ;)
xx

busy busy BUSY

2009-04-20T15:37:00.005+08:00

thats the only word i could think of now.
last week was in fact the busiest week so far in 2009.
i felt soooo tired,exhausted,lack of sleep and all those weak verb.
had tons of schoolworks + curricular extras + social gatherings.
anyway am v grateful that i sort of enjoy those lovely 'things' above.
i actually have something to focus on.
oh and i managed to squeeze in some shoppings a little bit there in my busy schedule.
despite homework add maths & biology yang tak siap siap.
a lot has happened.
aqilah- gone for MRSM,happy for her,same time,envy her for getting in.
do you know how hard it is to get accepted into good schools?
my parents (not me) are dying to get me in.
am so lazy to upload so many pictures so i combined them with Photoscape

pandu puteri,Bazaar 2009,Shah Alam.

Faez,Tiya's brother punye majlis khatam.

mama + papa's 25th wedding anniversary gift from me.

my score @ bazaar 2009,previously owned by Tunku Irinah Tunku Jaafar.
she had so many leather ranging from purses to belts and shoes.i saw a pair of Kenneth Cole and Charles Jourdan but theyre slightly a size larger than mine so i decided to go with an italian designer Cesare Martinoli.i bought the brown suede purse and the blue pumps for only rm20.

yes people! freaking 2o quid! macam menyesal pulak i tak borong semua yang ada,HAHA.

cz i saw vintage purses online and theyre all like rm30 above while i beli this one for rm10.plus almost all the purses she had there were all rare designers' piece,made in italy and leather-made.same goes to the shoes too.

the bazaar was okay.so many people,mostly pandus.loadsa bargains.plus the Sultan of Selangor officiate the ceremony.lucky me,i got to take his photo at a 4 feet distance.he's old la.

somehow he reminds me of Rais,probably the fact that theyre so related.Rais's cousin,the Sultan.

see that lady in blue? thats Tunku Irinah,the Yang Di Pertua Pandu Puteri something something.

i felt so bad for Boss Kira,kesian her,all her hard work etc then the cookies tak laku.anyways she's superwoman,she can handle stuff.dah nama pun ketua,lol.

then later that evening i went to Tiya's place.i met Maleyha's mother there.she was quite nice,not so quiet plus she's a v good photographer,hehe,better than Maleyha perhaps (sorry mal)Tiya's kenduri was splendid,yummy foods.

sunday,i went out to the Curve,trying to get some supplies @ Papier.mama dah balik dubai baru nak scrap about.thats okay,it'll be a surprise when she comes home later.

i am officially bankrupt.

no more shopping for me.

time to save up.or no more shopping for upcoming summer sale.

i'll come back for more.

lets get BUSY

dear adam khairi

2009-04-17T18:28:00.002+08:00

HAPPY 10th BIRTHDAY!

sorry for the late wish.
this morning when i woke up for school.
you were sleeping.
i forgot to wish you.
so sorry.
its okay i'll belanja you.
xx

thanks Diy,i look..pretty?

2009-04-17T17:48:00.003+08:00

sorry for taking a long time to put this up here.
xx

resplendently weird

2009-04-15T20:31:00.003+08:00

i have had enough of being busy.
i think i deserve,actually deserve the rights to go out and shop about.
its getting depressing and solemn.

shopping is like a game of Pac-Man,you EAT what seems good and free (cheap) and you run away from the ghost (the act of spending money)

i went to pyramid & parade yesterday with sadid & shipap,since mama and papa were having a relaxing so-called honeymoon at a nearby hotel,Cititel Mid Valley.
i heard it from mum,saying that it was an executive suite,on the 28th floor.
what else?

sadid & shipap got their parents gifts (anniversaries & birthdays)
i only scored a little tote bag at Mothercare (i have a thing for british products)
which only costs rm9.that person told us that we were lucky because the 'futher reduction' has jut started.

i know i didnt spend much,but window shopping makes me feel so much better.
at least for a while i forgot about myself and the things i have to do,must do.

in few minutes i'll be off with the dads and kids to a movie.
im sure it'll quite be the bore but wtf should be thankful that papa's taking me out and buying me tickets.

aufwiedersehn.
xx

buxom

2009-04-15T20:26:00.002+08:00

nothing is scarier than THE SHIZ.
its so intriguing and mysterious,am so thrilled.
applause to whoever you may be.
from now on,thats what i'll call it- The Shiz.

http://shizonsj.blogspot.com

on my knees.

2009-04-13T21:07:00.002+08:00

im sooooooo exhausted.
i arrived home at 4.30am this morning after 3 and a half hours driving from johor.
i couldnt sleep during the journey.
i couldnt really sleep when i got home,thinking of just the next few hours im going to wake up and get ready for school.
shitty shitty.

i was called forward to Puan Azizah's office; because my parents didnt come to pick up my March Test's report slip.
at least she wasnt that lecture-ish as Puan Kasma.

sorry for not getting to tell you about my last week's things.
i swaged & scored few (what happened to my financial program?).
im just too lazy to upload pictures mostly from mama & papa's wedding anniversary dinner.
i have so many things to do,cant even figure out where to start.
obviously,no time to rest.
oh kill me!

xx

weekend offline

2009-04-10T21:25:00.002+08:00

its really sad to be offline on the weekends.i dont like it.
im going back to Johor (like for the gazillionth time) because its mama + papa's
25th anniversary celebration,saturday night,which is tomorrow.
this week was a v busy week.
absolutely busy as a bee,probably much more.looking forward for time to take a break,but i think there isnt going to be any rest for me this whole month.
i really want to tell you more but i cant.
johor awaits.
i promise i'll make some time to blog about some 'old-news',not-so-new to me.
aufwiedersehn good night.
xx

so sick

2009-04-07T20:53:00.002+08:00

monday blues.
am so sick.
cik tiya pembawa penyakit.
haha.
took 3 biji of pills and doze off.
feel much better so i blog about.
but i think im not well enough so its better if i go now.
get some food to eat and pills and go to bed early.
oh shite but i cant.
its my telly nite.
2 hours of back-to-back fave telly opera.

xx

come again.

2009-04-07T20:26:00.004+08:00

oh i forgot to tell you mama,sadid and damia arrived last friday night.i was asleep already when they reach home from klia.
they just went back to msia a month and going to spend 2-3 months here starting june/july.i couldnt just imagin how busy me & my mum will be with big company around.
so last saturday night,Cik On had kenduri cz she's going to mekah.Cik Yah came all the way from johor to attend her sister's kenduri.it was nice,nice foods,i LOVE the apams and roti jala(s).

there's a lot of catching up to do.

kak noreen baked these,super yum!

mummy baked this for Cik On

kak noreen laughing at something mama said

i love kenduri(s),because you see different kinds of people and they have free foods,haha.

and on sunday we went to Pyramid,from 11am-7pm.a whole day of window shop (for me).others got some stuffs,pricey + cheapy,semua ada.
we had lunch at pizza hut

these kids grow up fast,like super fast.

sadid's smile is just like papa's.

she's a shopaholic,apa je yang nampak semua nak beli.

oh and damia insisted that we take pictures together so yeah.

xx

rumah diyana.the study centre.

2009-04-07T19:44:00.005+08:00

that saturday morning i was so weak.weakened by period pains and empty stomach.
before that,friday night i received text(s) regarding pandu putri meetings and librarian workshop.someone told me that the workshop was cancelled and i was a little confused? because i kind of know found out about this workshop a little too last minute but anyways someone told me it was cancelled so i ingat there's no workshop.while pandu pulak,daya said that theres no meeting but then farah texted me saying that there is.i couldnt be more confused.i dont feel like going to any of them but i know i have to.then things changed when i got my period right after subuh,yes right after i lipat my sejadah and saw my kain ada darah.
i stayed awake the whole morning cz usually after subuh i'll go to sleep but that morning i didnt.period pain started to kill me a second and another + i didnt eat anything for breakfast,i barfed but bubbles came out cz i didnt eat anything.finally i decided to drink a little of water and ate a piece of Oreo,then went to bed.diy,adlan,suhail tried to reach my phone but i didnt pick up.i bathed and rushed over Diyana's and apologize for being late.
so i stay over at Diyana's for few hours,
helped her bake cheese cake yang tak brapa nak jadi.(they said it tasted like egg/custard)

did my homework there.

try v hard not to buat maksiat at her study room,LOL.

appreciating her dad's collection of old items,zaman dulu.

talked about awesome stuff and giggled around like mad.

diyana and her v garang look.

suhail macam study je,memang study pun actually,haha.

i like to be at her place even if she said its so boring,its not to me.

xx

School Photoshoot Day

2009-04-03T16:05:00.003+08:00

..which was yesterday and wednesday,im supposedly duty-ing on wednesday but i trade days with CT so i wont miss Chemistry (cz were doing 3 experiments) and Add Maths.so i went duty on thursday,tak masuk class at all,the whole day long until morning session's over up to 3.30pm.v v v tiring but i need this experience.im one of the editorial board members (serving under Bm dpt.) so this is like a big event for us and if we didnt go,as if there's nothing we do as an ed board member,macam join sidang redaksi and buat bodoh je,feels stupid when i tak buat keje.
anyway a LOT has happened yesterday,mostly bad things but i rather not say it here la,dont feel good.
jackie cried and its a bad sign so things are that bad.
the only fun thing is that i can lepak with this mak cik and exchange stories with her.

future Ustazah Zainab,HAHAHA.

friday,not-so-usual

2009-04-03T14:50:00.005+08:00

physics amat bosan so we sat under the table and camwhored.
today is so,(insert-whatever-word-here).i cant even think of any term to define it.i borrowed a book.i look like i was avoiding adlan.i have additional maths work to be done.our school had fire drill.and its one v chilling friday.so relax.like youre in a pool on a cloudy day.

they have Armand and Cik Tiya there,thanks to Amirah for her lovely hand-made name tags.

hari ni cik aqeel seems moody because he's exhausted from hockey practice then ada world war 3 ngan cik tiya so kelakar la when he apologized to me about being angry etc.

cik tiya,i sayang you my caramel-o!

diyana mata camwhore
diyana memang suke posing sial! she's been a little grumpy these few days,for no reason.
going to her place esok for additional maths,physics,chemistry.suhail,adlan and lyn pun datang.
my mum cakap tuition free,diy terasa.but esok i have so many going on so i'll never know when im not busy anymore.

cik mira lawa
cik mira gua sayang lu jugak! i baik with her since last year when we were in 3 Usaha,getting to know her is fun + her parents are from Johor so like we're talking bahasa johor almost all time.
haha diy cakap orang johor kerek (sombong) but wtf la,my mum pun said so,out of 10 people 8 yang sombong,banyak la tu kan.anyway cik mira is in Nekad despite her good results in PMR because she said she tak nak masuk science,so not her thing as in what she wants to do + she said its susah,it is susah but why is it susah if someone can get like up to 10A1 like iman daniel.

amirah farted busuk dowh

oh look who came to visit all the way from kedah

that's Pei Qi,sweet Pei Qi is pinafore and Mr Sim writing some momentum equation.i do get the formula and calculating part a little but i dont understand what momentum means.kalau exam keluar Defy Momentum macam mana la?!

physics isnt my favourite subject,tergolong di antara subjek-subjek yang agak tak best.

the people sitting behind us,we banyak kacau them too.

cik tiya & diy,always laughing and cracking jokes during Mr Sim buat ceramah. (no wonder i scored D for physics :P i malas nak dengar Mr Sim and his v-bad-explaination,serious tak faham)

so basically this is the only funtastic thing about today that layak di-posted on this blog,which is our boring physics double-period.
i'll have cerita semalam later la.
xx

make believe.

2009-03-31T17:12:00.003+08:00

at last.something to talk about today rather than just bitching about yesterday's.
im still in complication and unable to resolve my problem,yes that one.
i couldnt understand and i dont even know where to begin.
lets move on; lets not talk about that.
i have a shout out to make:
HAPPY BIRTHDAY ADLAN! I LOVE YOU
oh finally..
i received this

from my darlings all the way from Barcelona; its incredibly superbly amazingly fun when yr living in europe and get to travel to its whole countries in the continent like what Cuman and his family does,they live in Ireland and just last week they went to Barcelona to makan angin,tak apalah,orang banyak duit kan 0.0
HAHA

oh and i think this

match.HAHA.i had to put on a pair of socks because the flats are a size bigger.i still thinks its pretty :P

im sooo not going to bed tonight,theres ugly betty desperate housewives chemistry english biology tonight.
xx

parting

2009-03-31T16:36:00.005+08:00

my mother,she had a cousin who's married (now divorced) to a swiss woman and then had a daughter.Auntie Heidi flew all the way from Basel to meet her long-time-no-see-one-and-only daughter,Kak Sara.so yesterday kak Sara,her husband and her mom spend a night here at my place.its been 2 years since my mom last met aunt heidi.
she kenal aunt heidi because when she was young,she travelled a lot,well not travelled actually more like stayed few years outside of this country; few years in switzerland and few years in england.so basically thats how my mom met aunt heidi.
so yesterday evening we headed to j.co for a nice evening tea time and catching up with each other.

auntie Ed and my mom.

my mom,little kak sara and aunt heidi

my mom and auntie faridah,her cousin.

i had these.

kak sara and her recently weded husband.

my mom,kak sara's husband,kak sara and mummy heidi.

kak sara and her mummy.

and before mummy heidi headed to the airport all of them stoppped by auntie faridah's house.

i didnt know she can play the guitar.

anyhoos,its great to have such lovely companies at times.
xx

10 of last week's

2009-03-31T15:21:00.005+08:00

1.

i went across this old school mini copper on my way to McDonalds with Cik Tiya after kawad.
i know its the type yang can be found in second hand/thrifted stores but its my dream car (:

2.

ranking:
1.Kuning
2.Biru
3.Hijau
4.Red
red is my house,such a loser la :P

3.

these trophies arent that yummy,they shouldve give Topshop/Topman vouchers instead this freaking gigantic fugly trophies yang trap dusts je.

4.

supermodels
since im busy with pandu puteri kawad kaki,my other half Diy took over my dslr.she's quite a talented photographer,quite je.so all photo credits (almost la) during sports day goes to Diyana Husnin.*applause*

5.

we didnt do that bad after all.
i cant imagine next year's kawad since im the only senior left :(
not really la but my batch tak ramai members.

6.

congratulations to winner,rumah kuning!

7.

hazeem gile bangga with his team
and the same goes to KRS for winning perbarisan (KP won 2nd place)

8.

pretty Ayesha in Red kebaya
i didnt know she's also in the red house.oh,diy also took this one.

9.

maulud is quite okay..but it'll be beyond the valley of boredom with Mira.
we camwhored after that.

10.

i might consider wearing tudung like..SERIOUSLY.
okay i dont know yet so no pressure.

up to more.
xx

to you,the one i need to show more appreciation

2009-03-28T18:32:00.002+08:00

i dont know what has gotten into me but i don't feel like replying to you when you say "I Love You".its not like i dont love you anymore,you just dont know how hard it is for me to accept as in really really accepting the fact that youre no longer here.
and i dont know how to feel about you anymore..
i dont know what im doing,
i dont know who am i looking for and what exactly my feelings are,
not just about you,probably myself too.
so i just want to seek your forgiveness and hoping for you to give me some time to think about myself.its not your fault,i dont blame you for going really but somehow i still am putting the blame on you,for certain reason?

oh god i just dont know what im saying now,i wish i could take all the things i said in the past and probably the times too so that i wouldnt feel as miserable as i am now.
i know ,THIS shouldnt come out but im tired of lying to you:
if i were never to meet you,at least i wont feel like how im feeling now when we have to part.

i remembered talking to one of your closest friends and he advised me to shoe more appreciation for the things youve done for me,because he said that you really really love and even if im not meant for you,you will spend ages and centuries to get over or in other words,you'll have a hard time letting me go.and that kind of hit me in the head and got me thinking.maybe this is not the right time for me.

one day i'll probably delete this post and regret saying all of this because i'll realise how much im thankful that 'this' time is over.
but for now,its just a dream.

xx

i lead with my left feet

2009-03-26T22:30:00.001+08:00

yes i do,heard of 'kawad'?
saturday's sports day and we have perbarisan pandu puteri.
its a little sucky than the past years.
im getting more more tired-er these days,this is such a busy week.
im sorry i have no photos to go with this post.
i wanted to post at least a photo with it but im too lazy to upload +
my eyes are no longer that wide-opened.
have so so so so so many things to do and to be done by the end of this week,
ive never felt this busier,not in a long longg time.
sigh anyway,hoping that you are not as busy as i am.
have a great week.

xx

second whole week of no-schooling.

2009-03-23T18:55:00.003+08:00

few things i did last week:
1. get sweaty

2. family dinner at fancy irish place

3. first time out,v much anticipated

4. experimenting with dslr's abilities

5. get my hair done,short

6. wear traditional-looking outfits

7. lepak with best-cousins ever to have

8. watch movie with daddy

9. enjoying sunset

-------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------

i got my marks today,it is very 'colourful' la sangat.like im collecting happy meals toys; ranging from A,B,C,D,E but i havent gotten a 'D',well not YET,haha.
school was fine,i gave a lift home to adiba.we (izreen,adiba,me) to write down the script for tomorrow's interview so we dont ended up rushing,just few finishing touches left.
i take ALL of this as an experience; to learn about something like 'kewartawanan' or in english journalism (i think la).
am thankful + happy to join the Sidang Redaksi.

xx

stay tuned

2009-03-23T18:42:00.001+08:00

thats what i want you to do.
just few more minutes and i'll be updating.

xx

any plans?

2009-03-15T09:15:00.004+08:00

this was taken from my room,the morning view.thaks to Photoscape its prettier
good morning! its my lazy-sunday and no plans ahead.the sun's already up up high and its 9am and im still empty,so lazy to go and do my own breakfast.

hanah posted something on her Xanga which reminds me of something i should say to her:
DON'T WORRY MISSY IM FINE.
I AM NOT MISSING OR ABDUCTED BY AN ALIEN.

ahaha,i know its not funny + she's worried like sick but im really really sorry to do that to her.its not like i sengaja dont want to update or stuff,theres reasonable reason practically,which are unexplainable.
yeah man i miss talking to her :(
she makes me high like smoke pot,lol.or what is it do you call nowadays?
laughing gas?

kay,i need a shower and some food.
xx

oh no please dont marah me

2009-03-14T17:35:00.002+08:00

please please you guys,sorry i didnt show up this morning for renjer.
i had a terrible headache and resulted with few ounces of pukes.
so yeah,so not feeling well not until 2 v-baik biji of panadols finally ease the pain.
again,please accept my thousand apologies.
xx

guiding girls.

2009-03-13T22:35:00.003+08:00

oh yeahs i forgot.
im having pandu puteri meeting tomorrow with BossKira and BossFarahKay,hayhay :D

say hello BossFarahKay!

kawad is such a torcher,to the jrs not me.
im so wanting to get some rest this one whole week of no-schoolness.
and the much anticipated 16//03//09.
xx

love is a little lie

2009-03-13T22:34:00.001+08:00

i wont make a fool out of myself anymore.
it aint easy to withstand the pressure/feelings associating with something so meaningful or or simply unexplainable,as if that make sense to you.

i am,confused and pretty stunted today.two people surprisingly showed up before me eyes; Roudah & Adlan.got lotsa stuffs to catch up especially with Roudah.
yeah everything's fine with them.

i finally figured out my exact marks for additional mathematics;it was a 35%;i failed add maths.and was expecting the same for Physics but i lulus setakat cukup makan je with 42.5%.better get used to failing.LOL

amira told me about this photoshop-alike instead its not from adobe,its called Photoscape and its so utt cool,hehe for a photo-editor jakun like me is it.

im feeling rather sleepy right now,but i just cant resist from staying online.
its no crime to just steal little of your time for something satisfacting,i dont think so,no.

when you have a boyfriend and he's far away from you,you will sort of have this feeling (when he's gone,no longer in sight) that's like..
i-dont-want-to-see-him-cz-it'll-just-hurt-me-cz-he'll-be-going-off-still
yeah something like that.
long-distance relationship is superbly hard.
i wont lie,im not okay,but i will be,i promised him and i wont let stupid things take over me.like Hanah said,have self-control.

xx

another term for HARD

2009-03-10T18:28:00.004+08:00

its one hell of a tuesday!
started off with english paper,sort of a good way to kick-start today's papers,it was sort of easy.
up to Physics,im like
oh me god am so fucking failing flipping hell dead !..
honestly out of all science subjects,chemistry is the one i think is likeable.
physics is so sucky especially when Mr Sim is your teacher,well cant really blame him.and biology is..i dont know..so scientific.
i have to admit that somehow i regret taking science.remember the borang aplikasi aliran thingy? i marked science as my first choice and literature as second.
i dont care,im sooo taking english lit for SPM.

okay so to sort of ease today's tense,im going to tell you what i love :D
(hee takde keje)
i love waking up to this.it reminds me of how much i love being at home when im far far away (and the benefits from gettind a room with the morning sun view)

and i love my childhood 'companions'.this is one of them and fyi im a traditionalist.understand me?

thats all for today folks! enjoy yr evening
xx

international women's day 8//3//2009

2009-03-09T17:37:00.003+08:00

i scrapbook!
yaayy! (havent been doing it in a v v v longg time)

managed to pop by papier yesterday and oh look!
i have this thing for BasicGrey's pp.

until i post again.
xx

2009-03-09T17:27:00.003+08:00

yeahs.i cant stay still.3 posts today is nothing okay :(

ayah mie and cik ita had a new baby boy.
welcome to the world Ahmad Faris Musyrif.

i like taking shots of random people.so one day i came across
couple of guys at 15,luckily they were the sporting type,hehe.

im so proud of myself HAHA :P cz i sort of made this and its looks
a bit like the one at Mimpi Murni.

i have physics and agama to study but sorry not in the mood.
xx

photoblog.

2009-03-09T17:02:00.004+08:00

im so lazy to type it all out,so let the pictures tell you the story.

sorry about athyra aqeel.

muhenter rao is me 'dad'.

dont cry no more lila.

thanks korang for coming to my kenduri.

i miss camwhoring with you cik pah .

maybe we should take part in more plays,great job guys.

i miss you.

2009-03-09T16:41:00.003+08:00

i always tell myself
when i get online i will post on my blog,gazillion posts.

but now all i want only is to take time to finish this one,if i ever will :P

life..is okay.ive been trying to adjust myself with 'the' situation here.im always scared shitless cz you know he's not around.
anyway school's fine home's great and all gutsy and bitsy things are just the way they are.

okay so im going to start with school.i met another person with interest with photography.

say hello to adib.see faris kat belakang tu?

yeah 4 setia is one v bising despite banyak nerds tapi peoples like dee,cik aqeel,cik tiya,muhaimin,miya etc;they made it fun fun fun!

i think im going to sambung later in the next post.ttyl
xx

if i ever see you again.

2009-01-31T08:36:00.002+08:00

i am writing this for the sake of my own comfortness and hopefully i could take it easy.

if you notice one of my post that includes a print-screen of keputusan kemasukan ke sekolah berasrama penuh,yes thats the highlight here.

after one sleepless nights of deep conversation and teardrops,i had come to a way.
he had already made up his mind,and i dont think he will change it not until any matter that came forward was serious enough.

he told me he was done with praying and he feels like he should be going to Kedah,after reading that from my inbox,all i did was - shutting my eyes and smiled.yes i am happy for him,for getting in SBP.i know it'll be really really hard to be part with him,even this year he masuk usaha pun i dah macam nak nangis,lols.
apa lagi kalau die lain sekolah kan..

i cant stay emo anymore,i have aims in life and i have to set my mind on studies.
his time is already here,but when mara calls in,i'll go.
there's nothing that is holding me back here plus it'll be easier to leave because i know that he is not around anymore,less pain.

2 years is just a short while.v short.you just dont realise it.same goes to me,im just saying its short when actually it feels long but when you reached the end of it,you'll admit its short.yeah thats human.

i know i can deal with all this.we can never stop from trying can we? we have given so many chances,not only two.

xx

it feels so early.

2009-01-31T07:51:00.004+08:00

i cant find reasons why yesterday feels like,so incomplete.
as in i thought that it wasnt going to end in 10 hours.
i dont feel like im living for 24 hours yesterday,less than that perhaps.

yeah and talk about time,CNY school holiday is almost over.
the day after tomorrow is monday,and yeah monday.
and i dont know how am i going to face it without wetting my cheeks with tears,sobbing till my eyes bawled out.

ive scheduled to drive back to KL tonight,late night probably due
to severe traffic chaosity.so terengganu is so cancelled,erased.
im glad its all over,the travelling blues.at least i wont have to complain
on aches and bruises for sitting in the car for too long.

i thought i was going to pack my bags last night and went off.but daddy refused to; he's the decision-maker.thats why that evening we went out to eat at our favourite places and went jalan-jalan a bit before we went home and never come again,for a long time of course.
after buying pisang goreng,putu piring,some kuehs,we went to have a drink at this cendol place but too bad,the cendol is all finished,sold out.
after tea time,we went uptown to Danga Bay for an evening stroll.
someone wanted to fly a kite,so we have to go and buy la.
bazir duit je beli dua.

its hard to capture birds,this is my best shot sadly.

did i forget anything? okay no.

xx

why? do i deserve this?

2009-01-30T10:09:00.002+08:00

pagi pagi dah buat orang pissed off and barking mad

i dont want to be rude but sometimes i hate the things i know i shouldnt and at the end of day i regret saying this and pulled it back.
everyone's pushing me to attend Maktab Rendah Sains Mara,not that i want.i really dont actually.even if i really see the whole point of attending the school.

today was supposed to be the pengumuman keputusan but unfortunately am not able to check out my mailbox outside cz am not at home,great.

and me mother keeps on nagging on my internet addiction; well it isnt my fault.
sape suruh tak nak pasang modem kat rumah?

and this is my only chance of getting through my belongings online.
i bukannye online like 24/7; just about 2-3 hours after subuh.
what's there to be mad at?
its not like im surfing porn,or or buat benda tak senonoh.
i just dont get mothers.
i know i will turn like one when i have my own childrens.

talking about holidays,yes its bad; i didnt do my add maths homework,so hard i tak faham.and the rest,ive managed to finish them and leave them at home; KL.
and my mom's really taking all that seriously,its not like i never ever done homework in my life!
UGHH!!
*anger strikes,firing between eyes and brains,deeply influencing thoughts on everything and people too*

too dangerous to continue.
would love to soon.

xx

don't ever look back.make up your mind.

2009-01-30T08:02:00.000+08:00

ADLAN says:
lgipun i rasa x pegi
Eddy! says:
look..
ADLAN says:
sbb nti mak sorang2..
Eddy! says:
listen to me
Eddy! says:
i akan sokong u walau apa jua keputusan u
Eddy! says:
(;
ADLAN says:
okay
Eddy! says:
im always on yr side
Eddy! says:
you nak pergi ke tak nak ke
Eddy! says:
u fikir habis2
ADLAN says:
okay
Eddy! says:
sbb...consider this once in a lifetime nye chance

guilt or plain repent

2009-01-29T08:26:00.000+08:00

there is something in this world;something so great that it would started up something in me,something that i feel bad,worried and scared.
I have to say that i admire Bade Hj Azmi for his films but this one had never made me gawk irrationally.
have you heard Malaikat Maut (Maut)?
yeah,that's the movie im talking about.
you should see it for yourself.
i dont think my words are poweful enough to write a review on it.
it started with Syaaban and simply ended with Zulkaedah.
i was expecting more from it but obliviously surprising,there goes the end credit.
this movie deserve the prefix of one-of-a-kind movie.ive never ever seen such a lessonful and obfuscate movie.
it was rather twisty than interesting.
i thought it as a typical because of the plot,instead the cinematography and the way the film was carried out changed my mind.

i wouldnt say rugi if you didnt see it,but if you think youre ready for a mind challenge,why dont you give it a shot?

was it too late?

2009-01-29T08:10:00.000+08:00

is it ever too late to fall in love all over again? but not with the same person la.
imagine if you were in your late 30s and youre still single,what will you be doing ?dont tell me youre busy chasing after wealth.
you know,money cant buy happiness.

cz i know this person la,she's all as the above and she's someone from the bloodline.
sometimes i wonder is that why she's been all that bcs she havent found love..

xx

pull the ripchord

2009-01-27T16:01:00.000+08:00

sorry for the v quick and incomplete last post.
was in a hurry.
just went home from Tebrau City,thought we were going to watch a movie but nothing seems interesting.

the Topman over here seems a lot cheaper than in KL.danny bought a baseball jersey for only rm29.while the Topshop as usual,always pricey.

even in my state of financial,i cant afford even to buy phone credit :P
sort of broke,well actually im being 'kedekut' here so i wont end up broke :P
sort of like um,saving for something worth any lifetime.

im not in the mood to talk more.
sayonara.

xx

2009-01-27T08:10:00.000+08:00

im supposed to join them for breakfast now,but i'll just be quick.
planned to blog earlier but due to loadsof unopened mailbox,i had to do something about it.

lat night unexpectedly,i ended up watching titanic with the boys.
it gave me an idea on my upcoming oral assassment.

good god;

off to eat
brb
xx

I Can't Spell It Out

2009-01-26T15:59:00.000+08:00

i don't know how to start this.as usual,a LOT to say.
before i blurt it out,HAVE A HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR OF OX!
even if you aren't chinese but we ARE Malaysians and we practice Muhibah,hehe.
am taking the CNY holidays for granted obviously.

i've been reading,writing (not really) and working every now and then.
its an unusual feeling;its weird really cz im not used to being this busy,
its just January..

- went to the Sidang Redaksi interview for BM dept. and Photography.kind of blew it out for the photography interview,i was chicken-shit-scared :P

- Setia's a,suprisingly v noisy of a class.even with population of nerds.

- am liking the idea of WORK & PLAY thingy.joining as much as organisation i can and balance them with studies,if a single person can make it done,why cant i?

not forgetting my application for MRSM,still waiting for the results,i dont feel like going.i dont want to actually but if you look on the other side,its like our an opportunity,not JUST a chance,a GOLDEN ticket to university unless if your parents dah terlebih mampu to send you abroad for futher studies.
scholarships are harder to get nowadays,cant afford to lose against.

lets change the subject.
today,i went to the Kebun Bunga.if youre not familiar with the name,as in where..i shall clarified it Istana Besar Johor right here.
packed for a small picnic,the day was fine until 11 when its really sunny.

i just love this place.

move on..
i got myself a suitcase of old baju kurung and my tok piah's clothes from her days,yeahs.
its kind of out of season but vintage is soooo in to me.
i wanted to go for a shopping,probably hunting for some unique bizarre incredibly fun nice stuff :)
but i have left with only several hundred ringgits and feeling rather kedekut to spend it all.by the way the world's economy isnt going well & fair kan?
and i dont see the whole point of buying stuff because most of the stuff i would like to / the places i usually go to has something to do with israeli economy.
they say the israel invest and probably own shares all over the world's leading brand in everything;clothing,dining,cosmetics etc.
and you know where those money flows into kan?
like recently what happened in Gaza,to those palestinians.im not a preacher,just wanted to share to you what i think of what had happened today.
because its really sad knowing that the weak ones are the Muslims.
im a muslim.

i sort of miss blogging la.
xx

oh so fortunate!

2009-01-05T21:36:00.000+08:00

yes deary we meet again,with luck.
im feeling rather sleepy now,my eyes have already adjusted itself so that i must go to bed early since my school's in the morning.

first day wasnt fun,v boring.ended up staying and lepak-ing in the hall,listening to crappy seminar that they repeated over anyway still it makes sense.
and its powerful enough to even make me feel scary because becoming a form 4 students is driving me towards starting making the right decision,which im quite bad at,hahaha!

yeah talking about being undecisive,i managed to fill up the aliran application and had to fake (sign bagi pihak) my mom's initial because puan sharifah was like pushing the students to hand over the form ASAP.i dont blame her for that.i really nak masuk class and learn,FAST!
my first choice is the science stream,so one mark there and second is the literature,another mark there.

why literature? okay i like sastera actually,it has something to do with what i want to be when i grow up,what my career might be.if i dont like to write or or talk shite i wouldnt be interested in blogging kan or or at least journal in a book kan?
writing is fun and how i wish i could write like that someone.

till then,nighty night.
xx

i deserve it.ive worked very hard.

2009-01-03T22:17:00.000+08:00

hello again,for a very long time kan? i havent blog kan kan ?
kinda miss it.
a hell lot has happened,i dont know where to start.and i might not finish it for the next few hours,wahahahaha.
thats okay,i rather sit here right now then going to the bathroom for a shower,its already 10.19pm and its freezing.

oh and fyi,i pinjam laptop my dad je.and consider that lucky cz it aint easy asking him for this kind of favour.haha,since i got 8As my saham naik la sikit :P
if tak faham,just buat2 faham la.

talking about new year 2009,i figured out my resolutions (which i think is important about making at least one)

- to be a better person (dunia & akhirat) (gile alim)
- hope for the best in everything (other words positive thinking,yes i wouldnt call
optimistic)
- write more more stuff (with correct english grammar)
- develop self-control and resistance (OH GOOD LUCK WITH THAT!)
- learn to eat vegetables (becoming a vegan)
- exercise more probably (produce endorphins from andrenalin)

holidays wasnt that awesome,cz am stuck in JB even if it gets me somewhere (like shopping probably..)
didnt even went to school on the 30th,during the Pengumuman Keputusan Penilaian Menengah Rendah (other words PMR results) so i called Puan Suraya Malik and asked her to look for my results then she texted me:

TAHNIAH!!! 8As

my first word was..." ... wohoho no hoho *screams and gave mummy a hug*.."
i think my mum cried la,haha anyway i wasnt expecting for an eight straight As cz Science was quite hard so i thought i might get 6/7As je but then i didnt!
hooray! so yeah my parents promised a dslr so i got one :)

it wasnt the latest model in market or something extremely good but its better than having the digital-super-fancy-sony-etc-camera..
NIKON D40

i cried in the cab on our way to Orchard,Singapore because those people at Sim Lin tipu i and tak kasi beli the Canon EOS 1000D at S$600+
oh the Nikon i bought at S$710/rm1725
still a bargain i guess cz the whole package kinda benefits me (with free protector,tripod and 8GB card)

this will probably be my last post until you know when *eyes rolled*
its gonna be a long time till i post again,if i ever get online
so i want to apologize to all deary friends for not replying to you (especially the one i miss the most,Hanah!)
not that i dont want to reply or at least say hi
i just didnt have the chance to do so

if you ask me whats my plan next..i'll probably apply for pure science class (cz i think its the safest platform in SM) and take 3 extra subjects -- Economics,Literature,Arts.
hopefully la,that was just a plan.
so you guys take care.this (post) better be more than enough,lols.

xx

no one will ever replace.

2008-12-19T12:01:00.000+08:00

like Adlan said,ive been watching too much of P Ramlee movies.
well,I DONT CARE
i love all of them.
watch this yesterday,it has one of my favourite songs in it; Bunyi Gitar

anyway,this is a quickie.

aiduladha

2008-12-12T10:51:00.000+08:00

yes i was away,almost a week.its for the hajj holidays.
we're always in Kelantan during aiduladha.this year my dad,he korban
so all of us went to see the cow that he wanted to korban.
took pictures but too bad ive no time to upload it now.but will do later.
anyway,life's been..oh i dont know,i dont like it when people ask "How's your life lately? How's things going? " etc cz i dont know how to answer,i dont even know the answer.

the whole raya haji thingy is tiring,i didnt sleep after we got home from Kelantan (after 9 hours of driving) and later at night we went back to Johor so yeah am in Johor.i know its been days over already since the trip but my butt is still aching.

xx

because im afraid?

2008-12-03T23:38:00.000+08:00

im tired + sleepy + exhausted ; everything and every single word that describe a person who no longer can do stuffs like typing or or talking.
but that's okay,i want to blog,really.
its about reality.
what im about to face is a brand new trend of education system in the next few weeks.
im still unsure of where im going,its like im so depending on my PMR results;what will it be on that white piece of paper?
yes i am nervous,i cant deny that feeling,its just that i dont know how would it be
and how am i gonna deal with it,if its not like what i expected.
its not about those pressies and $$$ i'll be earning with 8A's,its about where i am going to.
geez it feels scarier than SPM.
im actually talking 'future' here.
oh geez.

xx

Happy Birthday Mak Idah

2008-12-03T23:32:00.001+08:00

she's 58 but young at heart.
she's a loving and caring,one of my aunties and the eldest daughter
to my Tok Ban and Tok Yah (mummy's side).
she's an adventurous traveller,a tough person,and she's strong.
she had been through a lot,and i considered her as my mother too.
Happy Birthday,may Allah bless you and you be happy in your life.

with love,
edleen amani.
xx

2008-12-03T00:49:00.000+08:00

you should really watch this.
i think my imagination is running on wild now.
really.

xx

what did you do today?

2008-12-01T18:34:00.000+08:00

im proud to say
that i watch a movie today
loveble enough so i should stay

those 3 lines amazingly came out awkward and wrong,to me it is.
im so so so so so very happy that i watch Amelie today!
WEEHEE! :DD
this is a weird contentful feeling.

okay,this is one weird story,i couldnt get it.
its true art.
Amelie is for lovers not for critics.
i just love seeing the ending,they way Amelie and Nino love each other
in orange-coloured-day :)

The Fabulous Destiny Of Amelie Poulain is incredibly my most loveable movies
OF ALL TIME! :D

xx

foreign movie

2008-12-01T15:19:00.000+08:00

i cant say that its my favourite movie,i havent watch it yet.
i read a lot of reviews and sayings that this one v v v nice movie to watch.
everybody seems to love it.
i'll give a try alright :)

2008-11-30T11:08:00.000+08:00

as i promised,there will be photos from the past.but they just dont belong to me.
these are my parents and family members.
im still at JB and we're 'kemas kemas' old albums.so i found this.

2008-11-29T19:29:00.000+08:00

im such a terrible shopper.
i bought this for rm11.70 after 70% off.
yeah it wasnt a designer number or anything.local shop called Jusco has it in but what the heck i dont care.
its a total bargain.
if you ever see me spend again,please knock my head off.

xx

the cue to shop

2008-11-29T18:21:00.000+08:00

no matter how much pain i am in,im still in the mood for shopping.HAHA
just got back home from Tebrau City,its full of people there.what to expect?
its saturday today.

look what adlan bought me.
he's such an angel.thanks dearie.

okay i'll be back with more photos from the past,wasnt my photos really just something to share with you.
xx

this is like my other half

2008-11-28T19:53:00.000+08:00

i dont even know where to begin.v bored today,so wander online just nowhere and fate have me met Mimpi.

so i did some research about it,and found out that she might be my evil twin :P richer evil twin,HAHA.
her handmade jewelry reminds me of Tarina Tarantino but she's got softer side and lands more towards vintage rather than hardcore and much-too-fancy Tarantino.
prices are quite affordable and suits the type of jewelries which are ranging from rings,bracelets to necklaces.and the silver lining of this whole thing is that Mimpi's out to be scavenger-hunted at one of my favourite places to shop - flea markets.
i have nothing left to say except " KUDOS to Mimpi Murni ! ".
malaysia boleh!
xx

i couldnt be more in love!

2008-11-28T13:59:00.000+08:00

i was just browsing around and going online window shopping with Elmira.i went to my usual place the glampot cz i know they have good links,so i click on one and found out that the blog also opens another link to the world of Vintage that is so..amazing and made me speechless with a jaw-dropping face.
everything is always sold out here,thats a real bummer :(
i cant find anything that is actually not sold out ,HAHA.
cant wait to see another poster like this coming out from them.

oh please visit these darlings
im so in love with their works !

this is what you called an honest word from me.
xx

one last penny.

2008-11-27T10:04:00.000+08:00

good morning.im so not set for the mood today.travelling to pontian later.sending old clothes to 'salvation army' "sort of".
i really really want to blog right now but am running out of time,taking a shower.

brb.
xx

celebrations.

2008-11-25T18:09:00.000+08:00

photos from recent celebrations.

there's more.so come again.

quick change of mind.

2008-11-18T00:24:00.000+08:00

yes.i did it again.changed my url.serious xde keje already.
okay so i havent been online for quite some time so im currently busy with this:

its kinda a 'must' thing to do.

am going to singapore tomorrow.we're driving.hoping not to get lost.
good night.

xx

tagged by Hanah.

2008-11-17T12:55:00.000+08:00

im just gonna do this tag and thats it.no talking today. (we'll see..)

1.The last person to tagged you are ??
farhanah la

2. Your relationship with him/her?
FRIENDS

3. Your 5 impression towards him/her?
1) nice
2) v funny
3) awesome
4) quirky
5) emo (HAHA)

4. The most memorable thing that he/she has ever done for you?
well..just by talking to me?

5. The most memorable words that he/she has say to you?
she banyak cakap la..cant think of any

6.If he/she become ur lover ,you will
no i would not like to answer this cz i'll OBVIOUSLY sound gay

7.If he/she becomes your enemy, you will...
i'll so not win when in war with her

8. If he/she becomes your lover, he/she has to improve on...
hah?

9. If he/she becomes your enemy, the reason is...
some misunderstanding maybe

10. The most desirable things to do for him/her is...
go OUT on a shopping date.she has great taste

11. Overall impression towards hitm/her is...
different.

12. How do you think the people around you will feel about you?
?what

13.The characters for you for yourself is?
weird.

14.On contrary, the characters you hate of yourself is?
sensitive.

15 . The most ideal person you want to be is?
an artist (ive been trying so hard to draw..)

16.For the person who cares and likes you, say something about them
dont do it again,dont like me.dont give a damn about me.

17 .Chocolate or ice-cream?
ice cream (ive had too much of chocolate)

i have ended my internet life. faham faham je la

recent photos.

2008-11-09T17:02:00.000+08:00

well as i promised few posts earlier,photos will be uploaded.
these photos are dated from Oct 31 - Nov 9.
okay im sorry again,cant upload them directly to blogger due to some
'lambat' service so i upload it on my FlickR.
god i love that album !

click on this set

xx

amusing.its hilarious.

2008-11-09T01:00:00.000+08:00

now i feel like blogging.
ive just lost my blogging mojo and finally have it back.
i did went to the Swatch counter at Takashimaya but
ive failed to tukar the POP Swatch's band because:-

ME: er excuse me,can i have this *showed the watch to him* changed it strap?
SALESGUY: no im sorry miss,we dont have your kind anymore.its no longer
manufactured.
ME: but i thought you have the POP collection here, in Singapore?
SALESPERSON: *raised his brows* yes we do but yours is a different kind.

so i went out with..a feeling that is sort of sad cz i really wanted to buy new
bad for it.that was actually the main reason why i wanted to follow Mama to singapore today.its okay anyway,i ended up shopping for scrap supplies and buying stuff at Daiso, my Little Tokyo.

im so lazy to write now because i have a lot to say.so yeah.
goodnight.

xx

ive never cried this hard over a guy.stupid kan? VERY stupid

2008-11-08T09:57:00.000+08:00

okay.i might sound so bodoh for putting up that title.
but this is so heartbreaking (i dont blame these hormones).
had a huuuggee massive fight with him.
im just afraid to love him,omg did i say that?
no no i dont want myself to get hurt if i dont get to be with him anymore
so i kept myself at a distance.
okay , im no gonna blurt more.

currently in johor.
i cant go online in kl cz danny's having exam lately.
so no internet,sort of used to it.
as if im gonna die without internet HAHA (for some people maybe)
mama's back from dubai and she's here alone,just to
bring her excess luggage home.
we're planning to shop in singapore today.
i wanted to buy a new strap for my mom's POP Swatch 1989,the one ive been
using for the last 7 days.
i really adore that watch,besides the fact that its...old..and my mom's.

xx

start over.

2008-10-28T11:18:00.000+08:00

goog god!
i feel much better.i deleted all the old post,changed url.
but not in the mood to blog.
dont worry,will be updating.

maybe pictures too (:

xx